OK. Wayne and I have an understanding. He is not allowed to be sick. Our family just doesn't run right. OK. What it is is maybe I have made a rule...that he is not allowed to be sick...really it's that he doesn't allow me to do anything for him, like he doesn't need anything and I have a hard time with that and he gets kind of a weird grumpy that I don't comprehend when coming from his normal even keel self.
Well he is sick. He has a weird pain in his upper abdomen that wanes some and he isn't eating and is throwing up. (Sorry, I am a detail oriented person.) Gallbladder maybe? He won't let me take him to the doctor yet. He's been like two days and still went and did luminarias both days-long days, while not eating and feeling like crud. Apparently I am a baby when I am sick. Well I guess when I worked-that's just what you do, you work through stuff..but for heaven's sake.
This is the first time in a long time that I have been up at night worrying about something. The last time was probably when Allori was small and we were having nursing issues. It caused much stress.
Please pray for my husband. I...I am nervous for him. It is moments like this when your love for someone becomes such a keen perceptible thing, something nearly tangible. I couldn't imagine ever being without him. So my knowing he is in pain and not knowing what it is, is worrisome.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
The Literary Circle
I thought I would take a post to introduce Michelle and my book group. This group is very laid back. We feature one (sometimes two) books a month and discuss them as we read them-all via the web. How convenient is that? Read, Get Smarter, Talk, Toss around ideas, Philosophize, Make friends. No pressure. (We released the pressure valve upon opening the group. True. Of course we want people who will read. We would also like people who will write about what they read, and comment on what other people wrote about what they read. We want people to read what others wrote. We want people who read sometimes, lots of the time or always. We want people who read. Do you read? If you read, you possibly could be a good match for this group. What do you say? It might be fun. If you fit into any of the above categories, I woudl suggest giving it a go. Or, maybe you're not so much a reader, but you know someone who does know how to read. Maybe they would like to see the site, take it for a spin. Here is the link, use it as you feel appropriate:
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/The_Literary_Circle/
Here is a post I just posted if you want to taste it before you buy the whole package. This isn't my traditional post, but what is?
OK, I really thought about this. For the past few months we have featured respective holiday books. I am generally all for this but I have contemplated skipping a Christmas book and rather reading some gut wrenching drama or some other thing of the sort. My apologies to those who would have chosen the latter....but I promise it is coming soon. For the past several years I have taken the month of December and set it aside as a strictly Christmas themed book month. I love Christmas. I love nearly everything about it. I love the love that is freely given in gestures not necessary. I love the pleasant conversations at the early sales as you try to help each other (strangers generally, find their treasure.) I love making it a magical day for the people I love most. I love showing my family I love them as a representation of how the Savior loves us. I love the delectable treats and formal-ish dinners and the excitement of the children. I love finding the perfect gift. I love reading Luke 2 on Christmas eve and remembering the tragic yet beautiful circumstances that is the atonement in making. I love joy that in the deep of life is sometimes hard to locate, but seems abundant at this time of year.
So a Christmas book and a challenge too. Our feature book will be The Christmas Pearl by Dorothea Benton Frank. Please join us in reading this Holiday Book. I have read and truly enjoyed this author before so I have high hopes for this read.
By way of challenge. I would like to present one. I see all of these challenges and always say to myself, "self, I don't do challenges." Not that I won't, but simply that I don't. However upon further pondering I found that I do. Well 2 of them anyway. The first is to read the feature book on The Literary Circle each month. This may seem like a no brainer because I am choosing the book every other month, so obviously they are books I love right? Not exactly. The inspiration for this group was two fold. First, Michelle, my very best friend who lives a very long way could read the same book at the same timethat I read it, and then we would discuss it. I was so excited abotu our plan that I mentioned this to several friends who in turn all had the same response, "and you aren't going to let us/me/anyone else join?" Hmmm. I suppose we could do that. And how fun this has turned out for me and Michelle too I think. One of the complainers however un-joined a couple of months in saying she didn't have time to read. Hmm. Oh well, but that's for giving me the gumption. The second fold mission was to stretch ourselves and read things that we would enjoy but also choose things we might not otherwise choose. This particular issue presented it's own issues as now we weren't just trying to please ourselves but any number of group members. We aim to choose books that more people will read , will stretch the mind, will be entertaining and still mostly appropriate by many people's standards. No problem right? We have chosen a few books that have strung some intense and fabulous discussional posts. On the other hand, we have chosen books that only Michelle and I join in on. Anyway, back to the challenge. I have wonderful success in getting myself into the Christmas spirit by reading Christmas only books in December and would like to ask all willing readers to accept this challenge and begin by reading The Christmas Pearl together then chose a handful of Christmas novels from your local library and keep them going all month long. I know it's a busy time of year, but I use reading as my nighttime-cool off time. Who's with me?
(We have never offered a challenge on The Literary Circle until this very moment. Even the monthly reads have been voluntary so only Michelle and I have made those a challenge to complete. So here's to making Christmas great this year-here's to setting and reaching a goal and here's to a season celebrated for THE REASON, the true reason for this blessed season...our dear savior.
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/The_Literary_Circle/
Here is a post I just posted if you want to taste it before you buy the whole package. This isn't my traditional post, but what is?
OK, I really thought about this. For the past few months we have featured respective holiday books. I am generally all for this but I have contemplated skipping a Christmas book and rather reading some gut wrenching drama or some other thing of the sort. My apologies to those who would have chosen the latter....but I promise it is coming soon. For the past several years I have taken the month of December and set it aside as a strictly Christmas themed book month. I love Christmas. I love nearly everything about it. I love the love that is freely given in gestures not necessary. I love the pleasant conversations at the early sales as you try to help each other (strangers generally, find their treasure.) I love making it a magical day for the people I love most. I love showing my family I love them as a representation of how the Savior loves us. I love the delectable treats and formal-ish dinners and the excitement of the children. I love finding the perfect gift. I love reading Luke 2 on Christmas eve and remembering the tragic yet beautiful circumstances that is the atonement in making. I love joy that in the deep of life is sometimes hard to locate, but seems abundant at this time of year.
So a Christmas book and a challenge too. Our feature book will be The Christmas Pearl by Dorothea Benton Frank. Please join us in reading this Holiday Book. I have read and truly enjoyed this author before so I have high hopes for this read.
By way of challenge. I would like to present one. I see all of these challenges and always say to myself, "self, I don't do challenges." Not that I won't, but simply that I don't. However upon further pondering I found that I do. Well 2 of them anyway. The first is to read the feature book on The Literary Circle each month. This may seem like a no brainer because I am choosing the book every other month, so obviously they are books I love right? Not exactly. The inspiration for this group was two fold. First, Michelle, my very best friend who lives a very long way could read the same book at the same timethat I read it, and then we would discuss it. I was so excited abotu our plan that I mentioned this to several friends who in turn all had the same response, "and you aren't going to let us/me/anyone else join?" Hmmm. I suppose we could do that. And how fun this has turned out for me and Michelle too I think. One of the complainers however un-joined a couple of months in saying she didn't have time to read. Hmm. Oh well, but that's for giving me the gumption. The second fold mission was to stretch ourselves and read things that we would enjoy but also choose things we might not otherwise choose. This particular issue presented it's own issues as now we weren't just trying to please ourselves but any number of group members. We aim to choose books that more people will read , will stretch the mind, will be entertaining and still mostly appropriate by many people's standards. No problem right? We have chosen a few books that have strung some intense and fabulous discussional posts. On the other hand, we have chosen books that only Michelle and I join in on. Anyway, back to the challenge. I have wonderful success in getting myself into the Christmas spirit by reading Christmas only books in December and would like to ask all willing readers to accept this challenge and begin by reading The Christmas Pearl together then chose a handful of Christmas novels from your local library and keep them going all month long. I know it's a busy time of year, but I use reading as my nighttime-cool off time. Who's with me?
(We have never offered a challenge on The Literary Circle until this very moment. Even the monthly reads have been voluntary so only Michelle and I have made those a challenge to complete. So here's to making Christmas great this year-here's to setting and reaching a goal and here's to a season celebrated for THE REASON, the true reason for this blessed season...our dear savior.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
You have mail
Ok, do you guys get these emails? You know the ones, right? The obviously personal email that is simply sent to the wrong address. I mean I know there are the junk mail messages that are made to look like kosher emails.I get them frequently. Too frequently I think. I don't think my name/email address is THAT common. Is it? Here is the email in it's entirety:
please take a this to Holly in apt. 4. she can't get her mailbox without it. I promised it friday but kat was sick. thank you vonetta
(attachment file named, "rental agreement.")
please take a this to Holly in apt. 4. she can't get her mailbox without it. I promised it friday but kat was sick. thank you vonetta
(attachment file named, "rental agreement.")
Friday, November 14, 2008
Winter
It's hot chocolate weather and that is a sure tell that winter is here. mmm. Swing by and I'll make you a lovely mug of it.
Also our yard is full of leaves. Our HUGE cottonwood fills the neighborhood with leaves. I feel bad about that. Not bad enough to rake all the neighbors yards. Actually about every third house has a massive tree so its probably a combination of everyone's trees and wind filling every yard with leaves. Bummer for the non tree owners. Life isn't fair. Just another proof of this. But hot chocolate solves lots of problems and eases the pain and stress of the day.
Also our yard is full of leaves. Our HUGE cottonwood fills the neighborhood with leaves. I feel bad about that. Not bad enough to rake all the neighbors yards. Actually about every third house has a massive tree so its probably a combination of everyone's trees and wind filling every yard with leaves. Bummer for the non tree owners. Life isn't fair. Just another proof of this. But hot chocolate solves lots of problems and eases the pain and stress of the day.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
VOTE!
Today is voting day. I love absentee voting...makes it so easy. Make sure you vote!
Allison sent this soo funny picture through email and thought it was too good to not share!
I think Obama is a great speaker and has some good ideas, but don't' think he is right for our President. Of course, I always support the President in office. Guess we will see how it turns out.
Friday, October 24, 2008
I am pink.
So this morning on our way to Israel's visit with his dad and sister I was singingwith Allori:
Jesus loves the little children
all the children of the world
red and yellow, black and white
they are precious in his site
Jesus loves the little children of the world
I wanted to see what she would say since J is African American so I asked, "Allori do we have any one in our family that is a different color?"
"Well......I am pink."
hahahahaha. She is a good girl. Yes she is pink. And beautiful. I love her so much!
Jesus loves the little children
all the children of the world
red and yellow, black and white
they are precious in his site
Jesus loves the little children of the world
I wanted to see what she would say since J is African American so I asked, "Allori do we have any one in our family that is a different color?"
"Well......I am pink."
hahahahaha. She is a good girl. Yes she is pink. And beautiful. I love her so much!
Our Josiah
So thus far Josiah's mother cannot be located. They haven't seen one another since he was 2 weeks old when she dropped him at a friend's never to return. She raised, er.... had him, until a week before his first birthday when he was removed from her home for neglect. This was quite apparent when we got him. She sent a stroller with him. This was odd because she sent nothing else, no clothes, toys, etc. This is par for foster care, but odd that she sent the stroller. It soon became apparent shy she sent it. When this baby cried he would crawl up into his stroller. It didn't even occur to him to look for a person to console him. As soon as we realized this we put it away in the garage so we could teach him to come to a person for comfort. At first he was so confused...he would just crumble on the ground when he cried, at which point I woudl get him and love on him. It only took him a few days to realize he liked being loved. He easily learned to come to us when he needed to be comforted.
According to this lady, and his birth certificate and CYFD's investigative work, there were two possible father's. Both were contacted and we did a DNA test to get the results of...dun dun dun...dun....niether. So, no mom and no dad. CYFD just located his maternal grandmother who is raising 3 of Josiah's siblings. This was surely a surprise--he has siblings! And surely she woudl want to see him, have visits, etc. right? She had a little info for the social worker. Firstly, there is another sibling that has been adopted....younger than the 3 she has but older than J. Secondly she hasn't heard from nor does she expect toe ver hear from J's mother again. Thirdly she said somethgin like, "Oh, he is with a family who loves him and wants to adopt him? Great. Good luck to them all." No questions..no inquiries about him...no request for visits....I just can't imagine. This little boy is adorable. He is so smart and loving and fun. He is also fiesty and stubborn and sometimes he throws tantrums. I have tried not to get my hopes up-you jsut can't when youa re doing foster care. Thats not what it's about. It's jsut abtou helping where we can, when we can. But I wonder if he was sent to our family....for now...forever.
We love him so much and he loves us. He adores Allori and we are mom and dad. I can't imagine not knowing him, now that I do. I hope we get to keep him...that he gets to keep us.
They still have to look for him mother for a while and CYFD does everything slowly.
I am thankful for the blessing he is to our family. It feels like he is my baby.
This mornign at CYFD, a mother who was there visiting her baby asked, "Who are his parents." I answered, "He doesn't have any." Another foster mom who Josiah had been playing with said, "Yes she does, he has you."
According to this lady, and his birth certificate and CYFD's investigative work, there were two possible father's. Both were contacted and we did a DNA test to get the results of...dun dun dun...dun....niether. So, no mom and no dad. CYFD just located his maternal grandmother who is raising 3 of Josiah's siblings. This was surely a surprise--he has siblings! And surely she woudl want to see him, have visits, etc. right? She had a little info for the social worker. Firstly, there is another sibling that has been adopted....younger than the 3 she has but older than J. Secondly she hasn't heard from nor does she expect toe ver hear from J's mother again. Thirdly she said somethgin like, "Oh, he is with a family who loves him and wants to adopt him? Great. Good luck to them all." No questions..no inquiries about him...no request for visits....I just can't imagine. This little boy is adorable. He is so smart and loving and fun. He is also fiesty and stubborn and sometimes he throws tantrums. I have tried not to get my hopes up-you jsut can't when youa re doing foster care. Thats not what it's about. It's jsut abtou helping where we can, when we can. But I wonder if he was sent to our family....for now...forever.
We love him so much and he loves us. He adores Allori and we are mom and dad. I can't imagine not knowing him, now that I do. I hope we get to keep him...that he gets to keep us.
They still have to look for him mother for a while and CYFD does everything slowly.
I am thankful for the blessing he is to our family. It feels like he is my baby.
This mornign at CYFD, a mother who was there visiting her baby asked, "Who are his parents." I answered, "He doesn't have any." Another foster mom who Josiah had been playing with said, "Yes she does, he has you."
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